Lately,

I've been caught in this rut of frustration. I can't make concrete decisions on how I feel about anything. My brain is one giant contradiction. I have all these thoughts and feelings swirling around and none of it even makes sense. I secretly hate all people right now. I guess it's not so secret anymore. I wish I could stop being such a pessimist. But, I am taking steps lately to fix things. I got a new job and I'm going figure out school things tomorrow. I stopped taking Zoloft. I feel like it made my mood plateau which made me feel boring which then made me depressed, among other things. I have too many things to figure out and patience is not a virtue I possess. I want instant gratification, i'm an American. woo.